My 18 year old AS had been using for the last five years. In the beginning it was pot, it quickly became alcohol which was awful, and this last year Meth, which is a different kind of awful. He’s been to rehab twice had countless hours of treatment. Within the last two weeks he ended 90 days sober and walked out of the treatment center he had been living in.
We won’t allow him home, he’s quickly burning his bridges with other family. If he walks out of his grandparents one more time he won’t be allowed back. We have younger children in the home who he’s had immense impact on. He begs to come home in between saying hateful things. Regularly accuses us abandoning him, but has no interest in being clean. He refuses treatment has slept outside numerous nights. We are willing to find treatment and be supportive outside the home when he’s making good choices.
He can’t come home, but … I haven’t stopped looking for his calls or messages and I haven’t stopped laying in bed worried about his life, but…. I’m just done. I know he’s young, but there’s already been so many years lost to this disease.